I don't know if anyone sees this. If you have stumbled this Newground account out of curiosity, welcome. You can see this as my blog per se.

For a past couple of years, I tried to make art (or at least something that I could label "art") that showcases the "me" within me and my production skills. However, during those times, my life has changed dramatically. I got rejected from my dream school, got into a school which I didn't like (and still partly do), messed up my social life, became more violent, compulsive and depressed to the point that Newground might be the only place that I can open up, fucked up my mentality so bad that I now have severe porn addiction, short-term thinking and can't form tears as I was emotional too fucking much and had to hold it off too frequently. However, with all of that yapping and workloads, I still want to create art. I want to express my feelings and emotions, at least in the form of music and art as I am not very comfortable talking about it. I am inspired by not only aspired people in the Internet but also my peers, the artists at my school. I am jealous of creating art and sharing it with friends and be in a music club, which I failed to get into with my fucking failure mentality.

This might be my starting point, maybe to growth and success or maybe to my failure and spiral to despair. I have set many occurrences as my starting point already and many boundaries have been set and then broken to pieces, but hopefully, just hopefully, this might be the point that I can proudly say "This is the start of it all".

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yeah this is essentially a way for me to say i'm going to dump every piece of music I made here